#stay hydrated besties summer is coming

[allthebrazilianpolitics]

Summer Should Have Record Heat in Most of Brazil

Effects of El Niño may increase resulting in warmer oceans and changes in wind circulation

The combination of the record heat in the oceans recorded in August with the likely continuation of El Niño until March 2024 points to a summer with unprecedented highs in Brazil.

However, the arrival of warm weather in the country should not be delayed until the start of the season, on December 22nd. In addition to heat waves that started at the end of winter, meteorological forecasts, such as those from Inmet (National Institute of Meteorology), indicate that temperature records could be recorded in spring.

Experts also say that the rains that hit the South should gain strength with El Niño, especially in December, which will also bring hotter and drier weather to the North and Northeast.

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[giggly-squiggily]

Hi hi hi! How are you my friend? :3

This is my ask for the sentence starters, and I was wondering if you could do Bokuto and Akaashi? Lee and Ler of your choice!! Maybe with the sentence starter “That isn’t going to work on me”

I hope you have fun! Drink lots of waters and take your time 😊

Bunny!!!! Bestie, this is amazing! :D I haven't written for these two in so long? I missed them! I've gotcha covered, friend! Same to you friend! Stay hydrated and keep on being amazing!

Eyes stared him down, a bottom lip jutted out in plumped perfection. It was a deadly trap, one well played by the ace in question. However…

“That’s not going to work on me.” Akaashi was all too familiar with Bokuto’s games. “The answer is still no.”

“Oh come oooooon!” The bigger boy wailed as he flopped forward, putting himself in Akaashi’s view. He tried pouting harder, but the brunette merely turned away. “You always go for ice cream at this hour!”

“Yeah- in summer. When it’s not the literal arctic in this place.” Akaashi leaned further from the childish man he called his boyfriend, feeling his defenses slowly start to crumble at the ridiculous expression on his face. “You can go get some if you really want it, but I’m not bracing the cold anymore than necessary.”

“But I don’t wanna go aloooooone!” Bokuto scooted close enough to lean into him, pressing his face into Akaashi’s shoulder as he wrapped his arms around him. “It’s so dark and scary out there! I’ll get attacked by ghosts!”

“I’m sure all the ghosts are snuggled in their graves right now.”

“Zombies!”

“In this weather? Their joints are stiff, you can outrun them.”

“I’m lonely without you.” That one almost got him. Akaashi sighed through his nose as he turned to look at his boyfriend, lips twitching at the big eyed stare he was giving. “I won’t bug you the rest of the night?”

“You absolutely wi-ihihihihill! Gehahaha, dohohon’t!” The hands on his sides started tickling, Bokuto’s pout transforming into an impish grin as he gently kneaded Akaashi’s sides. “Stahahhap, thahahhat wohoohn’t wohohohork!”

“I disagree- it’s working pretty well!” Bokuto laughed in his skin, keeping up his playful attack. Akaashi writhed and squirmed against him, giggles growing into helpless laughter as his worst spots were targeted. “Pleaaase? One trip, that’s it! I won’t ask tomorrow!”

“Aheahhahaha! Fihihihine, fihihihihne you wiihihin!” Akaashi cried out, gasping for air when the tickling finally ended. “Gohohohd…yoohohohu’re luhuhucky I love you.”

“I love you too.” Bokuto didn’t miss a beat, kissing his red cheeks as he shot towards his coat, bundling up in seconds. “Hey, you know- the more I think about it, I don’t really want ice cream. I kinda want cake instead.”

Akaashi stared at him, a bit exasperated. Though- the convenience store was a shorter walk..and they did have hot cocoa…

“Cake it is.” He finally said, earning a whoop from Bokuto. He found himself smiling despite himself.

Send me a sentence starter and I'll write a dabble for you! :D

[thenycbratzdoll]

Lashanti’s 2024 essentials

Hey besties🫧 I finally have the ENERGY to make a post about products I’ve been in love with this year.

Hair

Let’s start off with hair. This year I’ve been heavily into hair mask and oils. I have very curly hair that’s been hard to maintain, but these products been making the detangling process way easier. Also leaves my hair healthier and stronger with less breakage. These include

Tgin miracle deep hydration hair mask

Mielle rosemary hair oil

OUAI leave in

Mielle rosemary mint clarifying sugar scalp scrub

These four products alone cause significant change in my hair

Body care/Feminine hygiene/ Perfume

This is one of my FAVORITE parts of my restock days. I spend so much money on this category and I’m not even mad at it. I love to stay feeling clean, fresh, and just smell so sweet and general. My favorite products I SWEAR by are

Rose water good wipes

Honeypot sensitive wash

Sugar cookie Native body wash

Sweet like candy Ariana Grande perfume

Philosophy fresh cream perfume

Philosophy fresh cream body lotion

Victoria's secret Tease perfume

Whole body deodorant from First aid beauty

YSL Black opium le parfum

Victoria's secret Sugared petals body mist

Victoria's secret Pistachio Crème body lotion

Kora organics turmeric BHA pore & brightening treatment mask

Trader joe's rosewater

Peter Thomas Roth pumpkin enzyme mask

Laneige cream skin toner and moisturizer

Vanicream gentle face wash

Vanilla sugar body oil

warm sugar cookie body oil

Tree hut birthday cake body scrub

Eos vanilla cashmere hand cream

I also love to do random sheet, feet, eye, and hand mask. I don't have any specific ones but I do gravitate towards earth therapeutics, tonymoly, the crème shop, and patchology.

Makeup

I enjoy getting dolled up. Makeup just be the icing on the cake. It's literally art to me and it's so fun. I feel like I finally found products and a routine that fits my face. I love to just enhance my natural features and add TONS of glitter. Here are my current MUST haves🥰

Victoria's secret fruity cereal lip mask

Victoria's secret sugar high lipgloss

Too faced kissing jelly gloss in bubble gum

Mac cremesheen gloss in deelight

Patrick Ta lip shine in is she younger than me

Dior lip glow in pink lilac

Cover girl yummy gloss

Fenty beauty invisimatte

Maybelline fit me press powder in toffee caramel

Essence lash without limits extreme lengthening mascara

half magic eyeshadow singles (I have so many of them they're so pretty and glittery)

Natasha denona mini starlette eyeshadow pallet

Butterfly effect by desi glitter highlighter in it girl

Butterfly effect by desi body glitter

Eva nyc glitter spray

Kiss natural trio false lashes in noir

Jewelry/ Accessories

When it comes to my jewelry i'm a bit simple. I love crystal jewelry from crystal shops that I can pick out myself. I don't accessorize much but hopefully this winter i'll get into more. My jewelry and accessories must haves consist

Crescent moon necklace

Crystal beaded bracelets

Evil eye bracelet

Ruby ring

Kyanite ring

I like to stay protected and wear crystals that fits me as an individual or what kind of energy I want to put out. I always been obsessed with moon anything. Since I was born under the crescent moon I found it so me to wear since it literally represents me. Due the weather dropping I love to bring out the furs such as fur earmuffs and hats. Nothing screams warm, cozy, and boujee than fur. Whenever I wear mini skirts I LOVE to wear the most prettiest/dolly leggings I can get my hands on. I’m not really into claw clips but the flower hair clips was a little staple piece for me this spring/summer.

Misc

These are extra little items that I love to have on me this year that i’m not sure I should categorize them in. These items I never really leave my home with and these includes

Angel aura quartz

Aquamarine

Mini note pad

Pen

Cotton swabs

Pain pills

Hand sanitizer (I always get my hand sanitizers from bath and body works because they have the best smelling scents. My go to scents are strawberry poundcake, rose ivy, and vanilla romance)

Rose and lavender essential oil

A water bottle

Bag charms (I always keep hello kitty and my melody on me)

Pocket mirror

Mini hair brush

Gum

I hope you guys enjoyed my 2024 essentials list of products I loved throughout this year and will be using for as long as I live probably. I love taking the time to invest in myself and taking steps to become my ultimate dream girl that younger me always imagined. Hopefully one or five of these products would catch your attention to try out🩷

[cherrygirlystuff]

Being A Grunge Girl In A Clean Girl Summer

Hey Bestie! 💖 Let’s Talk Summer Makeup – How to Nail That Grungy Cool Look Even When It’s Hot!

Hey, babe! 🌸 Summer’s here, and while we’re all about those sunny days and beachy vibes, let’s be real – the heat can make our makeup game a little tricky. But don’t worry, I’ve got you covered! If you’re like me and want to rock that grungy, effortlessly cool look even when the temps are soaring, keep reading. I’m spilling all the tea on how to keep your makeup looking fab without melting away. 🖤🔥

Step 1: Prep Your Skin Like a Pro 🌞

First things first, babe – summer makeup is all about the base. To keep your look intact, start with a lightweight, oil-free moisturizer to keep your skin hydrated without feeling greasy. And don’t forget sunscreen! Choose a matte, oil-free SPF that won’t leave you looking shiny. Trust me, your future self will thank you!

Once your skin is prepped, apply a good primer. Go for one that’s mattifying and pore-filling to keep your skin smooth and your makeup in place, even on those sweltering days. A primer with a bit of a grip will help your makeup stay put longer, so you can slay all day without worrying about touch-ups.

Step 2: The Base – Keep It Light, Keep It Matte 🌿

When it comes to summer makeup, less is more. Go for a lightweight foundation or a tinted moisturizer with a matte finish. You want something that evens out your skin tone but still lets your natural glow shine through. If you’ve got a bit of redness or unevenness, a matte BB cream can be your best friend. It’s like a soft filter for your face – perfect for those grungy vibes without feeling heavy.

Got a few spots to cover? Use a full-coverage concealer, but only where you need it. Keep things light and breathable so your skin doesn’t feel suffocated in the heat.

Step 3: Grunge Eyes – Smoky, Smudgy, and Oh-So-Cool 🖤

Now for the fun part – those grungy eyes! Even in the summer heat, you can totally rock a smoky eye without it turning into a smudgy mess. Here’s how:

Eyeshadow Base: Start with an eyeshadow primer to keep everything in place. Choose one that’s sweat-proof to lock in your look.

Matte Shadows: Stick with matte eyeshadows in earthy tones like browns, taupes, and even some deep plum or charcoal shades. Use a fluffy brush to blend the color onto your lids and into the crease for that effortlessly cool, lived-in look.

Smudge-Proof Liner: Go for a waterproof gel or pencil liner. Smudge it along your lash line, and if you’re feeling daring, add a bit to your lower lash line too. Use a small brush to soften the edges for that perfectly imperfect grunge vibe.

Mascara: Finish with a waterproof mascara that adds volume without clumping. If you’re really into the grunge look, apply a bit more on your lower lashes for that “I’ve been up all night, but I look fabulous” effect.

Step 4: Cheeky Vibes – Keep It Subtle but Edgy 🌹

For your cheeks, go for a soft, natural contour instead of heavy bronzing. Use a matte bronzer or contour powder to add some definition to your cheekbones, jawline, and forehead. Keep it subtle, but sharp enough to give you that edgy, sculpted look.

For blush, opt for a cream formula in a muted berry or dusty rose shade. Apply it with your fingers for a natural flush that blends seamlessly into your skin. Cream blushes are perfect for summer because they give you that dewy, fresh look without looking too powdered.

Step 5: Lips That Last – Bold, Dark, and Beautiful 💋

Now, let’s talk lips! Summer grunge is all about those deep, bold shades that scream confidence. Whether you’re into a classic matte lipstick or a long-lasting liquid formula, go for colors like deep burgundy, chocolate brown, or even a daring plum.

To make sure your lipstick stays put, start by lining your lips with a matching lip liner. Fill in your lips completely to create a base for your lipstick. Then, apply your chosen shade, and blot with a tissue. If you want that extra staying power, dust a little translucent powder over your lips before applying a second layer.

For a more low-key look, a tinted lip balm in a dark berry shade will give you that grungy vibe without feeling too heavy – perfect for those super hot days when you want to keep it chill.

Step 6: Set It and Forget It – Lock In Your Look 🔒

Finally, lock in all your hard work with a setting spray that’s designed to keep everything in place, even when you’re sweating it out in the summer heat. Go for a matte finish setting spray to keep any shine at bay and ensure your grungy look stays flawless all day (and night) long.

Final Thoughts, Babe: Grunge It Up, Summer Style 🌟

There you have it, bestie – the ultimate guide to keeping your makeup looking cool, grungy, and totally fabulous during the hot summer months. Remember, the key is to keep things lightweight and matte, with just enough edge to channel your inner rockstar. Whether you’re hitting the beach or heading to a summer concert, this look will have you feeling like the coolest babe around.

So, grab your makeup bag, turn up the volume on your fave grunge playlist, and let’s slay this summer together! 💋✨

What’s your go-to summer grunge makeup look, babe? Let’s swap tips in the comments – I’m dying to see how you’re keeping it cool in the heat! 💕

[javierpena-inatacvest]

Hi besties!!!

So I, like our Osita, am also an elementary school teacher (self indulgent much, I know hahahah) who has to face the reality of the fact my summer vacation is over, and I need to go back to being a real person who goes into work starting tomorrow 😭

I will 100% keep up with writing Never Too Late because I love Javi and Osita more than life itself, but now that I won't be having endless free time just to write all day, every day, chapters may not be coming out as frequently as they have been. I'm still hoping to try and get one out every two-ish weeks, but the beginning of the school year is CRAZY, so if you don't see anything from me for a hot second, I promise I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, I am just out here fighting for my life from the hell of wrangling 8 and 9 year olds all day 😂😂😂

I also just wanted to say, when I first started posting this series in June, I never, ever, EVER in a million years thought that it would turn in to what it has. I had never written a fic before, and decided to post this on a whim, and the overwhelming response has truly made my heart burst at the seams. Your support and kind words have quite literally brought me to tears on numerous occasions, and I can't thank y'all enough for wanting to read my silly lil stories 😭💕🥺

OKAY sappy moment over, forehead kisses to each and every one of you, stay hydrated, support your favorite fic authors, be kind humans LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU

Also sneak peek to tide you over, Javi and Osita are going to Chicago next chapter to meet her family EEEEKKKKKKK!!!

[zingsmith]

Sweatproof Makeup 101: Tips and Tricks for All-Day Wear

Do you also want to reapply your makeup throughout the day constantly? And struggle with sweat ruining your perfectly applied foundation and mascara? Fear not, as we have sweatproof makeup to save your day! Whether you're hitting the gym or dealing with scorching summer heat, sweatproof makeup can ensure your look stays flawless all day. Amidst the humidity madness, you can smash makeup goals with Lotus Makeup products. In this blog post, we will cover tips and tricks for achieving sweatproof makeup that will last longer than expected. Read on.

Start with a clean slate

The key to longlasting makeup is starting with a clean and moisturized face. Remove dirt, oil, or leftover makeup before applying your sweatproof products. This will help your makeup adhere better to your skin and prevent it from sliding off throughout the day. Additionally, moisturize your skin before applying any makeup to keep your skin hydrated and avoid any dry patches.

Use a Sweatproof Primer

The key to sweatproof makeup always lies in applying a primer. Look for a primer that is specifically designed to combat humidity and sweat. And Ecostay Insta Smooth Mattifying Perfecting Primer helps to ace the base by blurring out your open pores with a no-clog formula. This silicone-based primer helps to create a barrier between your skin and makeup, helping it stay a place for long hours. Apply a primer all over your face and focus on areas that gets oily or sweaty, like T-zone. If you're looking for a holy-grail primer, Lotus Makeup Ecostay Insta Smooth Mattifying Perfecting Primer has your back! 

Consider Base Makeup 

When it comes to sweatproof makeup, long-wear products are your best friend. Look for products specifically designed to withstand sweat and humidity, such as a lightweight long-wear foundation that doesn't feel heavy on your skin. Enter our Lotus Makeup Proedit Silk Touch Foundation that gives your base a longlasting matte, light, and non-cakey finish. It is one the best foundation for the Indian skin type; choose the shade according to your skin tone. Oh, it's sweatproof and budge-proof too! 

Set Your Base

If you want to stop your makeup from sweating, be sure that you carry your pressed face powder. Instead of caking up with heavy compact powder, use Ecostay Ideal Finish Pressed Powder, as it feels ultra-light on your face and prevents the T-zone from getting oily. Yes, it gives a flawless and all-day wear finish to makeup. 

Opt For Waterproof Eye Makeup 

We know how embarrassing eyeliner and mascara smudges are in this summer season. And to stay safe from makeup bummers in these sweaty months, switch to waterproof and pigmented kajal, eyeliner, and mascara. The smudge-proof kajal, such as Ecostay Longlasting Kajal, has a transfer-resistant and waterproof formula that gives a one-stroke application to your eyes. 

Invest In Longwear Lipsticks

Regarding sweatproof makeup, transfer-proof lipsticks should be your first call. And have you been looking for no-smudge lipsticks lately? Trust no other brand–Lotus Makeup Lipsticks are besties for life. The OG Proedit HD Liquid Matte Lip Colour is your ride-or-die to invest in. It is heaven-sent lipstick that gives matte perfection and longlasting formula and comes in various colours. It has an unbelievably gorgeous matte formula that lasts longer than expected. 

Set Your Makeup

Setting your makeup is crucial if you want it to last all day. Use a setting spray to help lock in your sweatproof products. A makeup fixer–Finish-Up Dewy Makeup Fixer And Mist provides an extra layer of protection against sweat and humidity. At the same time, a setting powder will help absorb any excess oil or sweat. Apply the setting spray or powder all over your face after you've finished your makeup. In conclusion, achieving sweatproof makeup doesn't have to be a daunting task. By starting with a clean and moisturized face, using a sweatproof primer, opting for long-wear products, setting your makeup, and keeping blotting papers on hand, you can ensure your makeup stays flawless all day long, no matter how much you sweat. So go ahead and hit the gym or enjoy the outdoors without worrying about your makeup smudging or sliding off because Lotus Makeup is your bet.

[proserpina-magnus]

Hi hope your day is going well and you’re staying hydrated 💖 I wanted to ask if you could write a bittersweet angst Regulus x reader where they were very close and both got the death mark but the reader was secretly working for the order and Regulus still believes in Voldemort’s ideas so he snitches on her and as the death eaters are torturing her she has flashbacks to memories she made with him and at the end he regrets it but can’t do anything- yes I want to cry my eyes out today ✨

Bestie I am so sorry this took so long!! I had to motivate myself to write this because Regulus angst hurts me to the core.  I really hope you enjoy this! xoxo

Tacanda [ Regulus Black ]

little information before reading: The italics are passed memories.

Tacada: Things better left unsaid; Matters to be passed over in silence.

Word Count: 1336

[ Warning: female reader, (light)ANSGT, sorta cannan Reggie, blood/bruises mentioned, betrayal, heartbreak, slight bone breaking, torture, petnames such as "darling" and "mon amour", hints directed towards child abuse revolving around the Black Family, Bellatrix makes a appearance ]

"I'm sorry darling, this wasn't how it was supposed to go," Regulus's voice wasn't kind, his words were plain, said without any emotion. his dark eyes squinted slightly, opening the door to the damp and dark cellar. A few of your fellow deatheaters slipped inside the room, their wands in hand, a dark smile over their features.

"Regulus! Regulus please," you yell in desperation, your eyes are as wide as saucers, filled with fear. He only turned his back to you, nodding at the deatheaters as he walked outside of the room. The door shut tight, locking you inside.

Your arms bound by magic to the chair rest, you wiggle and squirm to try and move. You're screaming out for him to come back, saying empty promises to try and get back on their good side.

Your pleas aren't heard and if they were, Regulus had ignored them. Resentful doubt filling in your nerves, Regulus wouldn't have left you. This wasn't happening, it was just a scare tactic for you to join their side.

"Please, I'm on your side!" You cry as they hit you with the first curse, it's a simple charm of pain. Your ears fill with their horrible laughs, their mumbles of insults slipping past your mind.

"I'm [ name ], you're Regulus Black right?" Your voice expands through the now open train compartment. You don't wait for his answer, instead, you slip onto the seat opposite of the smaller boy.

"Yeah, why do you wanna know," the boy said, a huff in his voice. His hair was combed back with gel, making him look more boyish.

Somehow, you had gotten him to talk to you and by the end of the train ride, you both had been well acquainted. You will never forget the first smile you ever saw him make, it was heart stopping.

Your body felt waves of pain, a stinging vibration hitting your skin. You saw their wand move from the corner of your eye, hearing them yell the Crucio curse. A loud scream ripped from your throat, your nails clawing at the wooden chair.

You fell back onto the floor, your stomach pressing into the chair leg as you stay strapped to it. The deatheaters chuckle insanely, each taking turns to send you awful spells.

"Reggie! We have all our classes together! Even potions!" You exclaim. It was your fourth year, you had been worried all summer that you wouldn't get to spend time with him.

"Really? That's... great," Regulus emitted, his voice was bored but his eyes were wide. He was filled with joy. Regulus flushed red when your arms wrapped around his side, pulling him closer into a warm hug.

He shrugged you off, looking around to see if his Slytherin friends had seen. You pouted, saddened. Regulus made a small frown, before leaning down and placing a sweet kiss on your cheek.

"Fuck you," you spat at them, sour blood leaking from your opened wounds. Your lip was bruised, a gashing wound on your forehead. You struggled to keep your eyes open, sneering at them.

"You fucking bitch," one of them rasped, bringing his hand into your hair as he grabbed it. He smashed your head into his knee, a hurtful crack filling to room.

With blood seeping from your nose, a dainty pain ached over every part of your body, you let out a cackling breath. Laughing in their face only made them angrier, another painful spell was casted.

You saw white flashes, eyes blurred as you choked on your blood. Metallic copper filled your mouth, you struggled to keep your teeth from biting your tongue.

Regulus planted his lips on yours, the Slytherins cheering in the distance. The Slytherins had won a quidditch match against Gryffindor, but Regulus had pulled you to the side behind the stands instead of celebrating with his mates.

Your eyes widened, his sweat and dirty hand coming to hold your jaw. It took him 5 years to finally kiss you and you weren't about to waste it. Before he could pull away, you brought him back down with a fistful of his hair.

"Regulus..." you whispered, lips warm as you feel the heat rise from the back of your neck. His eyelashes batted, he wasn't the small boy he used to be.

"I'm so in love with you, I have been since the moment you stepped into my compartment during the first year. Please, I'm begging you, love me back," Regulus whispers, his words hushed like he can't believe he's admitting it. Your eyes fill with longing, a gorgeous smile on your lips.

"Oh Reggie," you whisper back, pulling him down to a hug. He pulls you closer, holding you like it's the last time he would get to hug you.

Regulus listened outside the door, hearing snaps and loud crying whimpers from the room. His fingernails dug into his palm, eyes filled with rage. He gripped his wand, his knuckles during white.

Was the lord's acceptance more important than love? He shared wonderful moments with you, you've seen him cry and all the possible worst parts of him, how could he repay you with such cruel punishments?

"She's not the girl she was Regulus, she lied to us... she lied to you," Bellatrix whispered in a chilly voice, but Regulus paid her no mind as he stared hardly towards the ground.

Regulus almost lost it when he heard you call out for him, his eyes filling with hot tears. He was surprised he was hit from showing so much emotion towards a traitor. "Suck it in! A Black doesn't cry!" Bellatrix hisses, pulling him harshly away from the door.  Regulus let himself get pulled, he felt like a failure.

You hummed to yourself, a happy glow flowing around you. You had attended to some plants in the garden, casting charms to keep them healthy. Regulus watched with loving eyes, a small smile on his lips. There were only a few more weeks of school left, soon you and Regulus would leave Hogwarts and start your lives together.

"Mon amour, let me show you something after you're done," He called, making you turn your head to see him. With a confused smile on your lips, you asked him; "what are you going to show me?"

"It's a surprise darling, I think you'll enjoy it," Regulus persuaded, you finished charming the plants quickly. You turned completely around, seeing Regulus hold out a hand for you to take.

Your hand found his, clutching it with warmth. He brought you away from the garden, leading you back to the castle. You kept persisting he tell you what he wanted to show you, but he only smiled at you and kept walking.

In a moment, Regulus was on one knee, a small box in his hand. Your eyes peered open, taking in a deep breath as you watched him open the box.

"Please, I'm begging you, will you marry me?"  Regulus asked, you nodded your head as quickly as you could, your words getting caught in your throat.

"Of course ill marry you!" You choke out, watching on shaky limbs as Regulus pushed the silver ring against your finger. Your eyes filled with tears, Regulus soon scooping you up in his arms, twirling you around the room.

Your eyes had shut tight, they had no reason to open. You thought about your last order meeting, a promise to Sirius that you would change his brother's mind and get him on the good side. Your promise fell short, laying in a puddle of your dark blood, you let out one final cry. "Regulus please, I'm begging you,"

Your lover was long gone, you had only wished for death at this moment. Nothing could hurt worse than the heartbreak that filled your lungs, or maybe it was blood.

"Stupid bitch," was the last words you heard, before a blinding green light casts over the room. No amount of begging could bring you back, not even if Regulus said please.

[scraregenrecs]

Rare & Gen Rec Round Up - May & June 2022

How is it possible that summer is almost over already?! We hope you’re all keeping cool out there… and these fics are sure to be good company while you either soak up the sun or hole up somewhere with air conditioning. Enjoy (and stay hydrated)!

Also — If you’re participating in the Summer Reading Challenge, be sure to check out our recent themed recs.

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All my secrets are safe in your heart as well… by @typewritess (podfic by @rhetoricalk), Twyla & Jocelyn, rated G, 2745 words

Summary: A glimpse through the years at how Jocelyn looked out for and took care of Twyla while she was growing up.

Rec [written by doingthemost]: I have such a soft spot for these two and the close relationship we see in canon, and love imagining what they might've been to each other before the events of the show. This is a poignant look at their relationship and Twyla's early years. While it can be a little sad, it also feels like a warm hug–especially if you listen to the podfic!

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Best (Friend) Practices by doingthemost (@sarahlevys), Alexis & Ruth, Alexis/Twyla and Stevie/Ruth (background), rated G, 4499 words

Summary: Ruth makes terrible, corny jokes. She talks for way too long about her high school trifecta of mathletes, robotics, and debate team, and doesn’t entirely manage to hide her surprise when Alexis mentions finishing high school, like, two years ago. She tallies up their bill at the end, then charges Alexis for 58.33% of their appetizer because she accidentally had seven shrimp to Ruth’s five.

It’s the best evening Alexis has had in a long while.

When Johnny sets up Alexis and Ruth on a friend date, Alexis gets more than she bargained for (and then some).

Rec [written by petalwrites]: Alexis and Ruth are the besties I never knew I needed. This fic really explores their personalities and how they compliment each other in ways you might not expect at first glance. It’s also packed with queer feelings and some tooth-rotting Twylexis goodness. Absolutely a must-read.

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Discover me discovering you by @holdmygum, Jake/Evan Buckley (911), rated E, 5188 words

Summary: “You have somewhere to stay tonight?”

Evan bites his lip, notices the way that Jake is watching. His skin feels too warm and too tight, little sparks skipping along its surface. When he walked in here he had no idea where he was going to go or what he was going to do next, never having even considered anything sexual with another man, and one beer later he’s pretty sure he’ll be going home with this man he just met.

OR

Evan makes a pit stop in Canada and learns a lot more about himself than he ever expected.

Rec [written by petalwrites]: Frankly, I’m losing my mind over this. As a huge 911 fan as well as a Schitt’s Creek fan, this fusion is everything I didn’t know I wanted. Technically, no knowledge of 911 is required to read and enjoy this fic, though. It’s a great fic about self-discovery and… well… quality porn, lol.

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The Forest Between Us by @treepyful, Patrick and Twyla, Alexis/Twyla and David/Patrick (background), rated T, 4900 words

Summary: Patrick and Twyla are morning people. David and Alexis are not. This continues to be true while camping.

A 5+1 of early morning chats through the years.

Rec [written by doingthemost]: This is a gorgeous, atmospheric fic. I love how you can see the progress of time and these relationships through the 5+1 format, and the way this is written truly allows these characters to come to life. I love these two as best friends and siblings-in-law, and this is a great read for those who do, too!

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i'll be by your side, even if i'm not next to you by @landofsonlali (podfic by Amanita_Fierce), David & Alexis, rated T, 1594 words

Summary: david and alexis haven't always been close, but they have always talked to each other. it's easy to have an open line of communication when you share a telepathic bond with your sibling.

a story told in three parts.

Rec [written by doingthemost]: I am a huge sucker for magical realism and this fic didn't disappoint! I didn't know that this whole time, I've been wanting telepathic Rose siblings in my life. This fic is so touching and sweet, all while being gently humorous. It perfectly captures the feel and mood of the show and works so well with canon. 

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Slow and sure by @hullomoon, David & Twyla, rated G, 1036 words

Summary: David and Twyla bond over painting.

Rec [written by petalwrites]: Anyone who knows me also knows that I’m a BIG fan of David and Twyla developing a deeper friendship. This fic explores that through their shared love of painting, and I’m totally content accepting it as canon tbh. I’m a big fan.

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throw wishes to the well [+ podfic] by @hullomoon, Ruth/Stevie, rated G, 386 words

Summary: Stevie and Ruth make a wish.

Rec [written by petalwrites]: I really enjoyed this hopeful story about two of my favorite gals. Ruth’s voice really comes through — in the text, and in the beautifully read podfic — and the sweetness of it all puts a big smile on my face.

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time, wondrous time, gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies by petiteinsomniac, Alexis/Ted, rated G, 2814 words

Summary: how ted and alexis cross paths again, three years later.

Rec [written by petalwrites]: This fic is such a soft exploration of how Ted and Alexis could find each other again, post-canon. You can really see their growth and how nicely they will always fit together. Plus, there are sweet callbacks to the show, matching clothes, and a hint of sibling banter. I really loved it!

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whittling away at the self (who am i?) by @hullomoon (podfic by Amanita_fierce and art by @lizzie-bennetdarcy), Jake/Mutt, rated T, 1827 words

Summary: With Jake working on a Pride exhibition piece, Mutt starts thinking about what Pride means to him.

Rec [written by doingthemost]: I love that these two boys are getting more traction within the fandom! I love the way this fic explores Jake and Mutt separately and together, and the accompanying art and podfic are really well done!

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you come away with a great little story by @nerdframed (podfic by @petalwritesx), David & Alexis, rated G, 2750 words

Summary: In the quiet aftermath of one of the Rose family holiday parties, David and Alexis bond about how their lives have changed.

Rec [written by doingthemost]: I love these two chaotic disaster siblings, and this is such a tender, wistful, nostalgic look at the two of them together and how they've grown up (and grown together) over time! The podfic is touching and is also a must-listen. 

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you take the (cheese) cake by @hullomoon, Shannon/Heather, rated E, 1443 words

Summary: Shannon loves to watch Heather work with her hands

Rec [written by doingthemost]: This such an unexpected, delightful pairing! I love fics that shine a spotlight on the other inhabitants of Schitt's Creek and allow us to imagine what else could be going on behind the scenes during the events of the show. Plus their relationship is adorable and totally sexy!

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Happy reading, friends!

[goldenhourhimbo]

g-spot fingers, i'm never gonna be able to unsee that but you're so right bestie

Jay, thank you for providing me an opportunity to present on one of my favorite topics: Seb’s hands.

First up: the photo that makes me lose my goddamn mind every single time I see it. This could be the entire presentation honestly but I’ve had a lot of coffee and am ready to go the distance! I know this is clearly mechanic!Seb but doesn’t it also give you beach vibes?? A tan, just woke up horny from a beach nap, no one is around, those fingers tracing the edge of your bikini?

And while we’re talking about beach vibes: this man knows about bringing you a pre-BJ and/or post-sex cocktail. He’s got the umbrellas and everything! Those fingers? Prime mixology AND g-spot skills. Win/win!

Moving on to: summer bbq Seb. I’ve been obsessed with the pictures from this weekend since they dropped and can you BLAME me?! This man helped you make the cookies for the cookout, and also ate your cookie on the counter while they baked. Everyone has eyes on him at the neighborhood lawn game tournament but he only has eyes for you.

Next up I think we need to talk about hydration!Seb. What them lips and fingers do? You, babe. Lips: luscious. Fingers: limber. What am I even saying? Who knows! We’re just looking at hands, bb!

I would be remiss if this presentation didn’t include an action shot so allow me to conclude with Seb Gently Huffs on Equipment. Look how soft yet how deft. Imagine that care and attention being paid to your body. You deserve it. And it’s yours as soon as he finishes doing his job (which you LOVE watching because if you’re like me there’s a competency kink at play!!).

Thank you for coming, everyone. There’s water and lube samples by the door, grab some on your way out. Stay hydrated, friends. See you next time!

[inactiveanimeblog]

Hey! Why haven’t you been posting fics recently? Hope your doing good. Stay hydrated bestie ❤️❤️

tw : horrible lifestyle decisions lmao

aw hi <3, i’m so sorry ! i haven’t been posting cause i’ve been partying way too much and my brain is fkn FRIED ! like no seriously, i usually love writing when i’m lit but lately i can’t even do that. i haven’t been home lately at all and if i am i’m coming home at 6 am 😐 it’s the start of summer, so give me some time to readjust LMAO

anyways i promise i’ll be back from my break soon, i just need some time to get my head straight and to chill out. i have over fifty things in my drafts. some finished stories that need to be edited and some stories that are halfway done. when i come back there will be things posted back to back (^•^)

feel free to talk to me though. y’all know my insta and twitter. i’m here for you guys if need be !

[uzumaki-rebellion]

“Stark’s New Intern” Chp. 8

Summary: Erik takes a quick road trip to search for what his father has hidden...

"Free like the bluest sky Free like mountain's eye Free like... free like...free like...free like Free like the brown in my eye Free like the tears that I cry Free like...free like...free like... free like Free like a willow tree Free like a summers eve Free like the waves are crashing on the side of a solitary beach…"

Jill Scott – "Free (Epilogue)"

Erik handed a seventeen-thousand-dollar cashier's check to the salesclerk holding his I.D. and motorcycle license. The Kawasaki Ninja he wanted, the same as the one his mother used to have, with the same green and black coloring too, sat posted up outside the entrance of the motorcycle showroom.

Ownership papers handed over along with registration forms, the keys were dropped in his hand. The sales clerk had been a dick when Erik first came into the dealership looking to purchase a ride. He had to get permission from the manager before he could even do a test ride of the bike, even showing a picture of his mother on her bike with him when he was a child to let them know he was serious about buying. 

They gave him the grand total and Erik told them to have the bike polished and gassed up to go. Two hours later he was back and handing over full payment, but was annoyed when the bike wasn't ready. They assumed he wasn't coming back.

"Enjoy," the sales clerk said, and Erik rolled his eyes at him as he slung his backpack on and rolled out of the lot. His new helmet was nice on his head, and he felt free tooling down the I-10 and merging onto the 101. Transportation at last. He was too young to rent a car, and it was annoying having to use Lyft or Uber when he was ready to jet. His grandfather had called to verify his use of the money. Erik's parents had left him a small trust fund that he would receive in total when he was twenty-one. It was life-insurance money mainly, and he was allotted thirty-thousand when he turned eighteen with the rest pending. He was finally spending it on something other than clothes and computers.

His mother had him riding behind her the moment he was able to hang on to her waist, and his fondest memories were riding with her and Grandpop on the rare occasions they went out with his grandfather's bike club. Oaktown Rebels. Green and black were their colors.

The robust rumble under his thighs made him grin, and he sped up to pass a few cars as he made his way back to his apartment. He needed to grab a few things before he headed out to Joshua Tree.

Rolling into the apartment complex, he parked his new ride near Maria's leased car.

Walking into his unit, delicious smells wafted to him from the kitchen. He put his helmet on the coffee table and walked to where the tantalizing aromas came from.

"Look at you," Maria said.

He was surprised to see Valentina in his kitchen with Maria and also Giselle. All three women stared at him and his clothes.

"What happened to Erik Stevens intern? Who brought in Sons of Anarchy?" Maria said.

He touched his black leather biker jacket. The matching pants drew stares too.

"Just protective gear."

"For what?" Giselle asked. Her eyes looked suggestive. They were all a little tipsy. An empty wine bottle sat on the kitchen counter.

Valentina brushed past him to take a gander at the back of the ensemble he wore.

"That is some pricey gear, Stevens," she said.

"I bought a new bike…whatchu cookin'?"

His nose aimed for the stove.

Maria held tongs in her hand as she stood near a wok on the stove.

"Oh…shit….," she said pulling out fried egg rolls and placing them on paper towels on the kitchen counter.

"Lumpia. Chicken and pork…"

"What else?" he said, pulling open a lid on a skillet next to the lumpia still cooking.

"Pancit, chicken adobo, rice…"

Fuck.

He wanted to ride out to Joshua Tree asap, but the food looked banging and he was starving. This was better than the protein bars he was going to grab with his hydration pack.

"Join us," Maria said.

She pulled out plates from the cupboards and Giselle helped set their little kitchen table. Valentina opened another bottle of white wine. They all stared at him. He took off his riding jacket and carried it to his room. He packed up the gear he would take with him then washed his hands.

The women were already seated and grubbing when he returned.

Maria fixed him a full plate and he got down to business.

"So what is this? A hen party?" he said.

Giselle laughed and sipped on her wine.

"How did you guess?" she said.

Giselle had taken her braids out and Erik saw how big her hair was, lush puffy waves that cascaded to her shoulders, without her make-up and intern clothes, she looked like a teenager sitting next to him in her shorts and yoga top.

"We just needed to vent and trash the guys we work with," Valentina said nibbling on her lumpia.

"Well shit, maybe I shouldn't be here," he said.

"Stay, you might learn how to be a better man," Maria said.

"Erik is one of the good ones," Valentina said winking at him. Erik smiled, but then he caught Giselle looking at Valentina in a strange way. He stuffed pancit in his mouth and scooped up more of the noodles and cabbage on his fork. When Valentina's hand reached across and stroked his hand, Giselle really looked perturbed.

"Thank you so much for the pep talk the other day. I finished the beta on time and Janine spoke to me about working with Hollowell," Valentina said.

Erik nodded his head. Valentina's hand stayed on his wrist. She poured him a little bit of wine and he drank it so he could move his hand. He felt heat on his neck coming from Giselle staring and he couldn't figure out why she was giving off jealous vibes. Valentina was just the homie.

Maria must've caught the tension from Giselle.

"How's it going in your department?" Maria asked Giselle.

"Pretty good actually. I get to attend a conference with my project manager Evelyn. We leave in two weeks for Portland," Giselle said.

"So lucky! You get to travel. Wish we could go somewhere," Valentina said.

She picked at her plate and for a moment everyone was quiet as they ate.

"I have ube cake if anyone wants some," Maria said.

She jumped up and went to the fridge and brought back a purple cake. Once they all had their fill of food, Maria cut slices of the cake.

"Wow, it's purple on the inside too," Valentina said staring at it before she took a bite.

"It's a sponge cake, but a purple yam is mixed with it," Maria said.

"It's good! Light" Giselle said.

Erik snuck more wine and ate two pieces of cake.

"Let's go see your new bike!" Valentina said. Her fingers tapped Erik's hand again.

"C'mon," he said.

They all followed him downstairs.

"That is so cool!" Maria said.

Erik hopped on and started it up.

"That looks really expensive," Valentina said.

"Paid 17 G for it," he said.

"Can I get on?" Maria asked.

He helped her climb on and she took out her cell to snap pictures.

"Give us a ride around the parking lot," Valentina said stepping close to the handlebars.

"You need a helmet. I only have one," he said.

"It's just the parking lot. You don't have to go fast. We're in an enclosed place," she said.

"Me first!" Maria said clutching his waist.

He used his legs to roll back.

"Calm down, girl," he said.

Maria was giggling and wiggling behind him.

He zoomed around the lot and Maria squealed like a big kid on a rollercoaster for the first time. When he came back around and she jumped down, her face was flush from too much wine and laughing so hard. He thought she was so cute when she was buzzing.

"Me next," Valentina said.

She was taller and heavier than Maria. When she held his waist, he could feel her full breasts pressing into his back. Her chin rested on his shoulder.

"See ya!" she called to Maria and Giselle.

Unlike Maria, Valentina didn't giggle or look around, she rested her head against the back of his neck. When he brought her back, her hands dropped from his waist and rested on his thighs.

"That was fun," she said.

"Do you plan on getting off?" Giselle asked.

Valentina climbed off and Giselle hopped on. She was skittish with her hands.

"Hold tight," he said.

She relaxed and held him better. She looked around as they rode.

"This thing has some get up," she said.

"Yep. Top of the line."

He gave it a little more speed on the return so she could feel the power under them.

She took her time climbing off and Valentina was already trying to get a second excursion. He turned the bike off.

"This is so you," Valentina said.

"More cake anyone?" Maria suggested.

"I'll have more!" Valentina followed Maria back to the kitchen.

Giselle stayed behind as Erik dismounted.

"What's up with you and Valentina?"

"Nothing," he said.

"That's not what I'm hearing at the office."

"Whatchu hearing then?"

"Lunch together every day. Working late and driving home together. Acting like more than besties in public."

He shrugged.

"I eat lunch with Maria most of the time too. I don't have a car and it sucks catching the bus or a Lyft every day. She's friendly to everyone in public. Who are you hearing gossip from?"

"Maria."

"You already know she's a talker—"

"Not just her. Other people have been talking. A lot of the guys who want to hem Valentina up."

"Why do you care? You told me you wanted to stay professional. Acting like you in your feelings or something."

"I didn't say I cared like that."

"What if I was hittin' that?"

"I don't see it."

"Why not?"

"That's not you."

"Fuck you talkin' 'bout girl?" He leaned against his bike.

"Most Cali niggas I've met are prone to the white girl hierarchy. It's ingrained. Everywhere you look, white women are propped up. It is what it is. But you…you not that brotha. But Valentina, she wants to break you in."

"You jealous or somethin'?"

"Observant."

"You don't think I could get down with a white girl?"

"No."

"So you should be happy then."

"Why?"

"Most sistahs hate brothas with white women—"

"Not true. We don't care. We just get annoyed with Black men who date or marry white or non-Black women exclusively and then proceed to trash us every opportunity they get. There's a difference."

"What's the point to this?"

"Curiosity."

"I don't think so."

"I date the rainbow myself. Keep my options open. Black men will always be my first pick…but…you…you remind me of my grandfather. Y'now, Black people first, but probably have some colorism issues mixed in there—"

"Nah, I date the Black rainbow—"

"—and I wonder why you hold tight to that. Have you ever been with anyone non-Black?"

"No."

"Why not?"

"Why is this a conversation?"

"Don't deflect."

Erik stared at her. He couldn't understand why she cared so much about his choices.

"I have a preference for Black women. Other women are fine as fuck too and alla that, but for me…there's something about Black women that I just zoom into. I've been with mixed Black women…I just…it just be that way, Ma. There's a cultural understanding about shit that Black women get. I don't have to waste time or energy explaining shit-"

"Like?"

"Racism. Colorism. White supremacy. American fuckery. The struggle—"

"Of course. The never-ending struggle."

Giselle's voice sounded dismissive. He didn't like that.

"What if you met that one woman that was not Black and she had some cultural understanding and she was into you—"

"Hasn't happened yet—"

"Valentina-"

"Nah—"

"It's a fact. I heard her talking to some women in the break room. She really wants to make something happen. You can't see that?"

"Why are you telling me this?"

"Be careful."

"You blockin?"

"For who?"

"You. You not low, Giselle. You still feelin' me even though you want to be all professional. I saw you looking salty at dinner."

"I don't care if you get with her."

"Yeah, you do."

Giselle turned away from him and Erik grabbed for her hand.

"Hold up, finish," he said.

"Cake?" Maria called out.

Erik saw her on the top step of their apartment with a plate in her hand.

"Be up in a minute," Erik shouted.

His eyes took in Giselle's. She was serious.

"Why should I be careful?"

"Valentina comes off cool, but she's manipulative. I wasn't planning on coming here tonight, but Maria wanted me to, and when I heard Valentina was coming—"

"You wanted to throw a flag on her play," he teased.

Giselle's eyes didn't waver.

"If I wanted you that bad, I could take you."

"Look at you saying that with your whole chest."

Erik held onto her hand.

"All I'm saying is be mindful of how she acts around you and other people. I thought she was cool until I noticed some behavior that made me see that she's a user. She's into social capital and manipulation. You are Stark's golden boy and she wants to be the golden girl—"

"She's good at what she does—"

"Getting next to people who she can climb above."

"I don't see it, but I hear you."

"Do more than hear me. Men can be so stupid when they ignore signs."

"We're all here to climb over each other. Trying to outshine the next person to claim a spot."

"That ain't you either."

"You think you know me that well."

"You're an easy read."

"Maybe I'm manipulating you."

"No. I don't think you'd do anything like that. You're too blunt. Too real."

"I'm not interested in her or anyone else here. Just you. I would let you use me."

She smiled and he thought he had an in with her.

"Lemme take you out."

"No, I told you—"

"One date."

"No."

"You're killing me, G."

Giselle headed up to his apartment.

"You'll live, Erik."

It felt mad awkward returning to the apartment. He overanalyzed every interaction with Valentina. She was just…Valentina…relaxed when she was drinking, astute, aware of shit around her with a basic understanding of her own privilege in the world. Maria liked her and Maria had a good heart.

But Giselle was pretty astute too, and Erik had to concede that he often stayed in his own head a lot over the years and tended to ignore things that didn't concern him. Especially working in the Stark offices. He did his work and bounced, took careful notes in his journal, and kept to himself on the weekends unless Maria cajoled him into going to a movie. He was not interested in Valentina like that. She was gorgeous with that Greco/Roman Mediterranean vibe, sexy without trying, aware of it, but not lording it over other women. He racked his brain trying to think of any encounter where Valentina had ever—

"Hey, you okay?"

Erik snapped out of his reverie. He stood in the kitchen eating the last of the lumpia. Maria watched him with inquisitive eyes. He could hear Giselle and Valentina talking loud as they watched TV.

"Coolio," he said.

"You and Giselle looked like you were in a serious convo."

"Nothing too serious. She still won't go out with me."

"Maybe you should find someone else."

"Like who?"

Erik waited to see what she would say. Maria's eyes glanced down at his plate.

"I dunno, maybe…"

"Valentina?"

"Giselle snitched on me, huh? I shouldn't have said anything."

"Be honest. She checkin'?"

"Yes. This won't make it weird for you, will it?"

"Already done."

"Sorry. I know you want Giselle, but…"

"But?"

"You have a sure thing out in our living room."

"Not happening."

"Why?"

Erik popped the last piece of lumpia in his mouth and washed his hands in the sink.

"I'll see you later. Thanks for dinner. I'll be back tomorrow."

"Where are you going?"

"Personal business."

He went into his room and slipped on his jacket. His hydration pack was filled and he had snack bars for the ride back.

"I'm out," he said.

Both Giselle and Valentina stared at him.

"We were thinking of going out to The Grove," Valentina said.

"Next time," he said.

He left quickly and felt like he could breathe once he was back on the I-10 heading East. Traffic was cumbersome, but once he got past Ontario, the flow of cars was less stop and go. He made a quick bathroom break at a truck rest stop, and by the time he made it to Palm Springs, he saw the rows of wind turbines peppering the sides of the freeway. He knew he was close to his destination. The hundreds of turbines looked like white giants standing guard for some long-forgotten ancient battle.

The hill he rode up to get into Joshua Tree itself was peaceful in the darkness, and he found a cheap motel to stay in. It was better to search early in the morning rather than late at night in case he ran into any cops. Weren't too many Black people out in the desert, and meth-heads along with opioid users ran amuck, so Erik didn't want to look like a dealer doing a night drop or pick-up.

The motel was clean and he set his cell alarm for early morning.

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The heat would not arrive hardcore until later, and Erik moved quickly with the high-end GPS compass he bought for the job. This part of the desert had vortices that were fucking with the dials of the indicators.

Yucca plants and small cactus surrounded him as well as the yucca species known as the Joshua Tree for its unusual shape that Mormons long ago said looked like praying hands lifted to the sky. They seemed to thrive in arid places like this. Erik walked around with the small shovel he picked up from the Home Depot.

Sipping water from his hydration pack, he took off his jacket and laid it across his bike. There was no one near him for miles. He didn't have to worry about anyone stealing his shit. He set off in the direction the coordinates gave him. He wished there was a picture map sketch or mentions of signposts to look for, rock formations or a particular line up of cactus, anything to help pinpoint whatever he was looking for.

He found what he thought was the spot and dug for thirty minutes and found nothing. He moved to two other spots near his first dig site and found nothing still. Maybe it had been dug up a long time ago. Instead of getting frustrated, he let thoughts of his father guide him. If Baba wrote this down, it was important. He would stay as long as he could in his search.

When the sun rose high, he took off his shirt and tied it around his head, keeping his shades on as he continued digging. By the time it was near noon, his water was all gone, and he was hungry for more than the protein bars he had. Whatever his father placed here was long gone. He mentally prepared to plan a trip to the central corridor and Klamath where the other buried sites were.

A rabbit caught his eye and Erik walked towards it just to have a break from bending over and allowing him to stretch his back out.

"Shit!" his hissed grabbing onto his lips.

An intense itching overtook his bottom lip and Erik shoved his middle and index finger onto his gums there.

His tattoo.

Something was making his tattoo react in an adverse way.

He stepped back to where he was before he saw the desert rabbit and the itching faded away. He traced his footsteps around the area where the tattoo reacted. The space around it was less than a foot around.

Erik stepped forward again. The itching started again but was less pronounced. He could endure the sensation.

He started digging.

Three feet in he found a small gray silky bag the size of an apple. He picked it up and climbed out of the hole.

His eyes darted about and he walked back to his bike.

Opening the bag carefully, he found another cloth brown bag within. His tattoo flared up with prickly nerves. His hand slipped into the brown bag and he pulled out…

….a small chunk of neon blue metal that glowed with an intensity that made his hand light up. His tattoo was made from this, he was sure of it, his body reacting to the similar elements found within the metal.

Erik covered the metal back up quickly and stuffed it inside the pocket of his jacket and zipped it up. He debated covering the holes he had made back up, but he decided against it. He needed to get out of there as quickly as possible.

Pulling his shirt from his head, he put himself back together. Under the bright summer blue sky and surrounded by desert sands that led to mountains, Erik felt a freedom he hadn't felt in a long time. His quest felt tangible now. He had something his father died for in his possession. Erik shook his head, feeling a lone tear fall from his face. This felt like a true beginning. He had a talisman in his possession that would guide him to his future victory.

He rode to the nearest gas station. After filling up his tank, he bought fresh water for his pack and made his way out of town.

This metal, this hidden treasure that his father buried far away from Oakland…Erik recognized it.

Even knew the name of it.

His father had taught him the word.

Vibranium.

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[amyvictoriali]

Hey beautiful reader!

As an impending shelf exam for my 3rd year medical student surgery rotation draws near, I of course decided to procrastinate. 

Some of you may remember I once had a blog named sweetskindreams with my own URL/domain and everything. Well, it was incurring an annual fee and I honestly wasn’t blogging regularly enough to make that worth the money. I also wanted my blog to expand to a lifestyle blog, where it’s not just regarding skincare but also discusses makeup, fashion finds, food, med school woes, relationship updates, etc. As for the decision to opt Tumblr yet again (rather than the more formal Wordpress) - it is because most of my closest friends (cough people who will actually read this cough) are already on Tumblr and can easily be updated via a follow, whereas a formal blog requires a mailing subscription and the idea of my blog posts being e-mailed out to folks seems a bit extra. For how casual I’m treating all of this anyways. 

Intro aside, I wanted to kick off this new lifestyle blog with my recent Spring/Summer 2019 beauty hits and misses. Hopefully this will save you some money if you’ve been eyeing any of these products because there are definitely options I would avoid. 

Let’s start with the MISSES: 

- Touch in Sol No Problem Primer, $18: this was gifted by my roomie, so I really wanted to love it, but I gave it a miss because it still doesn’t beat Benefit’s Pore-fessional (quite frankly, nothing has) for pore minimization purposes and it doesn’t really act well as a primer either. Doesn’t ease foundation application nor prolong anything. It feels silky and nice to apply but I can’t perceive any useful benefits. 

- Too Faced Cooling Matte Pore Perfecting Primer, $34: people need to stop labeling things as “pore minimizing” or “pore perfecting” when they do absolutely nothing for the pores. Similar to Touch in Sol, this primer didn’t do anything special to prime the skin or cover up pores. It does feel cooling, and SMELLS AMAZING like much of Too Faced’s products do (a sweet fig scent), but those are secondary perks that don’t mean anything if the primary function is lacking. I also didn’t enjoy the application, which was hard to spread over the skin and knotted up easily. Hard pass.

- Fresh Rose Deep Hydration Facial Toner, $45: it pains me to put this in the ‘pass’ category but I do so because the effects are not worth the price. Rose petals in the toner make this so beautiful and an addition to my routine I so wanted to incorporate for aesthetics alone, but my skin remained dry only minutes after application. It just can’t justify the hefty price tag.

And now for the FAVS:

- Hourglass Mineral Veil Primer, $54: Ugh. I can’t find a better one. Gifted to me on my b-day by my beautiful friend Liz, I treasure this DEARLY. I’ve known since college how effective this primer is, how flawless the application (very sheer liquid form makes it glide easily over your skin), and yet because it’s been on the pricier side I’ve never actually repurchased. To receive it as a gift is definitely a nod to how well my besties know me and I am so thankful for them. I only use this on special occasions/going out. Hoping I can make this last for a good few months. I have yet to find a better primer, although Laura Mercier is a close second.

- Laneige Berry Lip Sleeping Mask, $20: Again gifted by Liz (WHY DID YOU SPEND SO MUCH ON ME THIS YEAR STOP) and IT IS THE BEST LIP BALM I HAVE EVER USED. And I’ve tried everything from Glossier (overrated) to all the usual drugstore brands (Eos, Baby Lips, Burt’s, Nivea). Nothing beats this. Not to mention it smells/tastes delicious. Laneige kills it with their sleeping mask for skin and the lip one does not disappoint either. Keeps my lips hydrated and doesn’t leave them extra dry after (that’s the main issue with all those other chapsticks, they moisturize for a bit but leave you drier than you started off. This does not have that issue, and is the only thing I’ve ever come across that doesn’t leave me more dried out!) looks glossy too and that’s always a bonus :) 

- Missha Magic Cushion Cover, $12 on amazon: ok so... cushion BB creams are my new fav thing. They are so damn easy to apply (literally pat your face for 15 seconds and you have flawless looking coverage) and don’t dry your skin out as much as foundation. Looks super natural too. I can’t rave about these enough. Sure, regular liquid BB creams/tinted moisturizers are also nice and good for summer but those require brushwork or beauty sponge work which both take a couple minutes, whereas the cushions take mere SECONDS. For someone who has to drag her ass to the hospital at 5am, the shorter the routine the better. (AND YOU CAN’T BEAT THIS PRICE TAG! Altho sadly these do only last about a month with daily use) 

- Lastly, I received 2 Drunk Elephant samples for my Sephora B-day gift this year. I’m sure y’all have heard of this brand as it is advertised constantly on instagram and has iconically beautiful packaging in bright, fun colors with minimalist designs. The samples I tried were the Beste No. 9 Jelly Cleanser and the Protini Polypeptide cream. Both are ... phenomenal. Very mild scents, free of all the junk that irritates your skin (mineral oils, silicones, alcohols, etc) and just what my currently cystic acne covered skin needed. (Yes, my acne is back, and I am so bummed about it. Definitely a result of me neglecting skin care when I was studying for Step. I ran out of my prescription retinoid for a couple weeks and sure enough these zits came flying back. Recovery has been slow but there is improvement.) The only caveat to Drunk Elephant products are their prices. Full size Jelly cleanser is $32 and Protini cream $68. Decking yourself out in the Drunk Elephant line will definitely hurt your pockets. But omg... I am seriously contemplating trying their whole line now. It’s not just how beautifully the product wears and how effective it is at what it advertises, but the FREAKING PACKAGING. And I don’t just mean the looking pretty part but more importantly the functional design. Go to Sephora and try the already opened samples yourself and you’ll see what I mean. The Jelly Cleanser cap “twists” (but does not come off) and has a little hole in the center that allows you to squeeze out a tiny dollop of product so you can quickly “twist” it back. And their serums are all in little dispenser bottles. You already know how much I love convenience, and DE makes everything as convenient as possible (and so so clean!) 

Hope you enjoyed this review and stay tuned next month for a review of a splurge purchase I made on AmorePacific products. I am especially curious about their Treatment Enzyme Powder to Foam Peels, so will review that later b/c I understand $60 is a lot to drop on something without knowing it will be worth your $. My brother is in Taiwan right now and has been instructed to bring back a hefty haul of sheet masks, eye masks, skin toners/essences/serums galore, so more to come in August. Until then, happy shopping! 

xoxo, Amy

[cherrygirlystuff]

It's F*cking Hot, Let's Sweat

Hey Bestie! 💖 Working Out in the Summer Heat – How to Stay Cool, Confident, and Totally Fabulous

Hey, babe! 🌸 So, summer is in full swing, and while we’re all loving the sunshine and beach vibes, working out in this scorching heat can be a real struggle. But here’s the tea: staying active during the summer is not just about keeping those summer body goals (though that’s definitely a bonus!) – it’s also about boosting your mood, confidence, and overall health. Let’s dive into how to make the most out of your summer workouts, even when it feels like you’re melting. ☀️🔥

Why Working Out in the Heat is Totally Worth It 💪

First things first – why should we even bother working out when it’s so hot outside? Well, girl, here’s the scoop:

Boosts Your Mood: Exercise is a natural mood booster. Even on the hottest days, getting that endorphin rush can help beat those summer blues and keep your spirits high.

Increases Confidence: When you work out regularly, you’re not just toning your body – you’re also boosting your self-esteem. You’ll feel more confident in your summer outfits and more empowered to take on whatever comes your way.

Enhances Health: Staying active is key to maintaining good health. Even in the heat, regular workouts help keep your heart healthy, your muscles strong, and your energy levels up.

Top Tips for Staying Cool While Working Out in the Heat ❄️

So, how do we keep it cool when the weather’s blazing? Here are my top tips for making your summer workouts as fabulous as they are effective:

1. Time It Right: Early Mornings or Late Evenings 🌅

The sun is at its peak during midday, so try to schedule your workouts either early in the morning or later in the evening. The temperatures are cooler, and the sun’s not blasting down on you, which makes for a more comfortable and enjoyable workout.

2. Hydrate Like a Boss 💧

Staying hydrated is crucial, especially when you’re sweating buckets. Drink plenty of water before, during, and after your workout. If you’re doing a particularly intense session, consider adding an electrolyte drink to replenish those minerals you’re losing through sweat.

3. Dress for Success: Breathable Fabrics & Light Colors 👚

Your workout gear can make a huge difference. Opt for lightweight, breathable fabrics that wick away sweat. Light colors are your friend because they reflect, rather than absorb, the sun’s rays. And don’t forget your cute workout cap or visor to keep the sun out of your eyes!

4. Embrace the Shade: Find a Cool Spot for Your Workout 🌳

If you’re hitting the outdoors, try to find shaded areas like under a tree or near a building. Parks and trails with plenty of shade are perfect for outdoor cardio or stretching. Alternatively, consider working out indoors in a well-ventilated space or gym where the AC is your best friend.

5. Listen to Your Body: Know When to Take a Break 🛑

Heat can be draining, so it’s essential to listen to your body. If you start feeling dizzy, overly fatigued, or overheated, it’s okay to take a break. Cool down with some water and find a shady spot to rest. Your health always comes first, babe!

6. Refresh with Cool Treats: Post-Workout Snacks 🍓

Reward yourself with a refreshing post-workout treat! Think cool smoothies, ice-cold fruit, or chilled yogurt. These will not only help you cool down but also replenish your energy and nutrients.

Fun Summer Workout Ideas to Keep You Moving ☀️

Bored of your usual routine? Here are some fun and effective summer workout ideas that are perfect for beating the heat:

Outdoor Yoga: Find a shady spot and flow through your poses. The gentle breeze and the calming environment will help you stay relaxed and cool.

Swimming: It’s a fantastic full-body workout that keeps you cool. Dive into the pool for a swim or try some water aerobics for a refreshing exercise session.

Hiking: Hit the trails early in the morning or late in the evening. Hiking is a great way to enjoy nature and get a solid workout without the intense heat of midday.

Beach Workouts: If you’re near the coast, use the sand for resistance exercises. Running on the beach or doing bodyweight exercises with the waves as your backdrop is both challenging and scenic.

Tennis: Ready to serve up some fun? Tennis is an awesome way to stay active and beat the heat. Playing early in the morning or later in the evening means you’ll avoid the peak sun, and the game itself will keep you moving and motivated. Plus, it’s a great way to work on your agility and coordination while having a blast with friends.

Final Thoughts, Gorgeous: Keep It Cool & Confident 🌟

Working out in the summer heat might come with its challenges, but with the right approach, it can be totally manageable – and even enjoyable! Remember, the key is to stay hydrated, dress smart, and listen to your body. Whether you’re rocking an early morning jog, a refreshing swim, a fun tennis match, or a chill yoga session, you’re not just working out; you’re boosting your confidence, health, and overall well-being.

So, get out there and own your summer workouts with that fabulous attitude of yours. You’ve got this, babe! 💋✨

What’s your favorite way to stay active in the summer heat? Let’s swap tips and tricks in the comments – I’m all ears for your workout secrets! 💕

[magical-awesome-kid]

Platonic Soulmate AU no one asked for

Soulmate AUs are almost exclusively romantic pairings but I give you the ultimate platonic right here and now.

Basically soulmates are still people destined to fit perfectly together but more in that they are reincarnations of the the same soul. They are the pair to you, salt to pepper, pb to j, etc; however, it’s rarely a romantic phenomena and more likely that the person or persons who are your other parts end up becoming closer then any other family or friends.

While only about a quarter of the population has soul marks, this number has increased dramatically over the years. It’s still being understood by science and, of course, there are people who think it should be romantic or is an abomination Blah blab blah.

Basics of soul marks:

Each soul is given a mark but its only visible on the skin of people who share a soul

There is one similarity between all the marks - there is a shape, usually a circle, encompassing the mark that is broken into line segments. The number of lines = how many soulmates you have

Most common number is 2/3 soulmates but there is one story of a group of 8 sharing one soul

They usually show up at birth or within the first five years of life

Soul mates can also share things - writing on skin, feelings, whispers of thought, what they’re listening to, etc, but it’s really random and the jury is still out on why

For the Sides:

Their mark is a rose that starts of as light blue and fades to dark blue, purple, and red. Its encompassed by a black circle broken into four parts

They first realize that random marks will sometimes transfer over when written on skin. Logan figures out they need to write in their associated colors to get best results, but even then they fade out or cut off at weird parts

Doodles always transfer though, and Patton and Virgil are stress doodlers

Patton is really in tune with the emotions thing while Virgil can tell only when someone is stressed or experiencing extreme emotions.

Logan and Roman can catch glimpses through the others eyes from time to time

These strengthen once they actually meet

Logan and Patton:

Logan and Patton met each other first. Logan transferred to Patton’s school district for Freshman year and, sadly, could not escape gym. He showed up in his blue swim trunks to the swim unit with a frown and had .5 seconds from the time he heard a gasp and was tackle-hugged into the pool

Logan’s mark is on his upper back by the shoulder while Patton’s is on his right hip, so as soon as Patton saw the matching mark he POUNCED

Logan gasped for air when he came up ready to give the person a talking to about proper safety but they’re crying and emotions and Logan can’t deal but then when they do get out of the water and he sees the mark he just goes ‘oh’

The next two years of high school they become the best of friends, filling in where the other lacks. Patton is the emotions guru and helps Logan understand other people better (he can do basic emotions but more complicated things go over his head) while Logan helps Patton focus when need be on his studies and bring him down to Earth sometimes when he’s basically on an emotions high (not helped by the empathy thing)

Virgil and Roman:

Meanwhile, at another school district, two utterly opposite boys have been in an unlikely friendship since middle school

Roman and Virgil met when Virgil’s mom told him he HAD to join SOMETHING at school because she didn’t understand his Anxiety and just thought he was sad because friend things. Virgil didn’t like it so he went for the easiest thing he could think of - stage crew. He could sill wear all black and he could paint set pieces and generally stay out of the way

But nope the best sixth-grade singer had a major fashion meltdown twenty minutes to curtain on opening night and Virgil managed to get it fixed with some careful staples and a few pins until intermission when he could actually fix it.

Of course now the kid named Roman likes him and won’t leave.

Roman is very Extra. He’s in a bit of everything but he loves stage the most. He’s always out there with dreams of glory and magic and all, but its really hard for him to put things in perspective sometimes, getting him into trouble he can’t get out of alone

Virgil and Roman just end up sitting together one day when Roman invites Virgil to sit with some of the other cast and crew kids at lunch instead of hiding... somewhere (Virgil often goes to a teacher’s room with a homework excuse). Virgil doesn’t at first but eventually he caves and does it ONCE to get Roman off his back.

It’s not once.

Even long after the winter show is over Roman and Virgil still hang out and seem to compliment each other. They are the sass kings so much so people think they hate each other but then Roman is just like “oh no this is just how we show our love” while Virgil rolls his eyes

Because Virgil almost always wears a pullover or hoodie (even in the summer), Roman has never seen his upper arm and, with the weird placement of Roman’s mark on his outer left thigh, it wasn’t likely that they’d ever show each other on accident

Roman loves his soul marks and soulmates and can’t wait to meet them even if he only knows snippets about one another though random images and lots of doodles. Virgil is, of course, anxious about it. They talk about their soul mates sometimes but because they don’t have the same experience (extreme emotions vs images), it takes them forever to put things together

Eventually Roman catches Virgil doodling little purple cats onto his inner arm one day when he’s really anxious - seriously anxious, hood up and earbuds and practically rolled into a ball. Roman is about to interact to try to distract when he notices little spots of purple on his arms.

Roman looks between the purple marks and the location of the cats. One of his dots gets whiskers

Roman screams, startling Virgil as the boy practically falls over and screams himself, and now everyone is staring as Roman and Virgil are screaming. Roman shoves his hands in Virgil’s face and it takes a hand comparison then more screaming before realizing yes, they’re soulmates, god dammit, and your stuck with me for life Sir Sing-a-lot

Bring it together:

Sophomore year of high school Roman tries out for the speech and debate team and, of course, gets a spot in the humorous interpretation team with his rendition of a funny play. He manages to convince Virgil to take a chance and try out as well, and Virgil gets a spot on the informative 4 minute speeches for his piece on anxiety and coping mechanisms

Virgil is just grateful that Roman sneaks into the room every time and that its only to five or six people. He kind of hates it but also enjoys it because he know a lot of people come away knowing more about anxiety

But then they have to travel to a nearby school for a competition, where a certain blue-tie-loving nerd is giving a four minute on the importance of hydration and a balanced diet (while his best friend is running the bakery table, of course)

Virgil and Logan (and Patton, who snuck away to watch, and Roman, who snuck in to support Virgil) end up in the same room. Logan sort of intimidates the group with his speech but Virgil appreciates it because theres a lot of things that overlap with dealing with Anxiety

Logan walks back to the refreshments with Patton but Roman and Virgil end up following because FOOD and eventually they begin to talk about their pieces. Roman and Logan start a debate on the balance of dream chasing in the mix of taking care of one’s self while Patton is all over Virgil’s jacket because its hand made and can you make me one but CAT???

Logan: You are allergic to cats. 

Patton: But CATS!

Of course, now when Logan and Patton come to the other school it’s like they never left and they’re all back to being besties and sharing stories from the time. Patton insists on needing phone numbers, and it becomes a thing

Junior year Roman invites Patton and Logan to the spring musical when he gets to be Hercules in the play (first major roll, one which is usually given to a senior). They, of course, come, and it’s all a mad house so Patton and Logan see Virgil and Roman for only a few minutes because Roman still needs to get his skirt thing on and Virgil has to fix a sword because some idiot (*Virgil glares at Roman*) broke it trying to impress a cute boy

Roman: But did you SEE him? 

Virgil: Yes, I have eyes, and he’s totally out of your league 

Roman: *offended prince-y noises*

When the play gets going Logan and Patton are enjoying themselves but when Roman comes on stage with his skirt thing both Logan and Patton are staring because right at the edge of his skirt a multicolored rose is peaking out.

Logan spends the rest of the act just trying to see if its a match but Patton’s ready to burst right then and there

At intermission, nothing stops Patton from running back stage and tackle-hugging Roman and, at first, Roman’s like “wow thanks Padre but you haven’t even seen the second act” but then Patton lifts his shirt and shows his mark and is screaming excitedly

Anyone who went to middle school with Virgil and Roman suddenly have deja vu

Patton’s screaming, Roman’s screaming, Logan is just so done with his crazy extraverted soul mates so someone grabs Virgil because he’s the only damn one who can calm Roman down

Virgil: What the HELL is the screaming about???

Roman, clutching Patton: SOULMATES!

Patton: *screaming excitedly*

Virgil, turning to Logan: Please explain.

Logan, adjusting his glasses: Well... it seems Roman is a third to Patton and I’s shared soul.

Roman, eyes blown: WE HAVE THE WHOLE BAND TOGETHER!!!

Logan: What.

Roman: VIRGIL IS MY SOULMATE WHICH MAKES HIM YOUR SOULMATE WHICH MEANS-

Patton has already released Roman to tackle hug Virgil and now Virgil is all flustered and Logan save me from the extroverts

Roman’s second half is more energetic then ever, and he gets a standing ovation. 

In college they end up at different schools but they’re relatively close so every weekend at least one person is visiting another. Patton and Virgil are in the same city, so they just room together after freshman year.

Roman’s moms constantly joke that their son sees his soulmates more then they see him, and he just gives them the most dramatic response by grabbing everyone and bringing them over one weekend. His moms did not sign up for this Roman (but they love his friends)

Roman tries to set everyone up with dates. Some work out but most don't, and that’s ok because he’s never deterred (much to Virgil and Logan’s exhaustion and Patton’s excitement - Patton makes so many friends instead of date mates most of the time)

Patton and Virgil are both together when the huge wave of heartbreak hits them and they instantly call Logan and Roman

Logan just got his heart crushed by a guy he liked, and it was one of his first big crushes so everyone comes in and makes him feel loved

When Patton breaks his leg, Roman and Logan see the hospital sign via Virgil and show up without being called, fearing the worst. Patton’s just sitting there with Virgil doodling on his cast, though, and they were going to call them when they got home if the two hadn’t freaked so much to rush over without all the facts (much to Logan’s embarrassment)

Roman and Logan, of course, stay the night to help (and sign the cast)

Virgil being very anxious about exams and everyone helps - Logan Skypes to help Virgil review and Roman is sending mix tapes while Patton offers sweets and hugs, and it really helps the kid calm down.

Basically even after graduation they’re still in one another’s lives to the point that when Patton get’s engaged he’s got them all there for the full wedding planning. When Roman gets his shot at Broadway, they all come out to see him. When Logan gets tenure, they throw him a quiet but no less fabulous dinner. When Virgil decides to write a book about Anxiety, everyone cheers him on, especially when it wins top of the New York Times.

Just them being there for one another through it all, and it doesn’t have to be romantic its just being them, feeling complete with one another there.

[animatorlife]

It’s been a while.

Hi everyone.  I know it’s been a while and I am sorry about that. It’s been a bit of a crazy year. I’ve been doing a lot of freelance work and I’ve been a bit under the weather and trying to take care of myself and in all the hustle and bustle I lost the time to maintain the blog and have fun.

I’m hoping that now I can get back into it.

In short, I’ve been sick.

In long:

I have an autoimmune disease that essentially just makes staying hydrated a real bitch. It’s not life threatening or painful mostly, but it’s annoying as hell. I have really dry eyes and skin and mouth and for the most part it wasn’t a big deal, but last summer my doctor noticed that it was starting to be a problem for my eyes and my skin on top of some stomach upset (saliva is apparently crucial to digestion in your stomach), and my teeth were getting brittle. So she put me on some medicine to help correct that problem and would also boost my tear and saliva production.

I was on it for a few months and felt great.  I noticed a big improvement in my condition. Then I started noticing my ability to concentrate start to wane and I got easily overwhelmed by almost nothing. It was weird. I’ve had a full time job and side hustle for years. I thrive under stress and live to be busy. Me not being able to deal was strange. I told my mom about it (she’s a nurse so she’s my triage for everything) and she said that sometimes that kind of thing can be normal, but if it wasn’t a big problem then she could help me find ways to work with it.  It was essentially my choice, was the little bit of weirdness and stress worth the improved condition.  I pretty much thought hell yeah it was.

Then it wasn’t.

About 4 months into the new meds, I was driving home from work when I got a tingly sensation in my hands. Okay, this is weird. Maybe it’s carpal tunnel? By the time I got home I couldn’t feel my face and my legs were so tingly I needed help climbing the stairs to my apartment. I called the doctor not sure what to do and was instructed to go to the ER because worst case scenario I was having a heart attack, best case scenario was that it was an allergic reaction that needed immediate care.

Carl, da hubs, took me to the ER and triage was able to rule out heart attack right away, which was a relief, but I was still terrified out of my mind. I literally could not calm down. When the doctor examined me and looked at my medication list she was very kind. The medicine that had been making me feel a little off, causes anxiety attacks in a very small percentage of patients. It wasn’t a heart attack it was an anxiety attack. Telling me this should have made me feel better, but all I did was panic. She grabbed some oxygen and a nurse came in to grab my hand and asked me to list 5 things I could see.  I was not a candidate for medication to help the anxiety because it would interact with the meds causing the anxiety attack. I was going to have to rough it out the hard way.

Waiting for that medicine to be completely out of my system were the longest month of my life. I would wake up in terror for absolutely no reason. I couldn’t logic my way out of it and each time it would happen I would chant, “it’s not a heart attack” while being terrified that maybe that time it was.

To anyone struggling with anxiety, my heart goes out to you. I cried a lot and I felt hopeless and ridiculous. I was needlessly embarrassed of what was happening. And I told almost no one. 

Carl, of course knew. If there was ever a doubt in my mind that I married a good man (not that there ever has been) how kind he was to me while I was going through this would have been the biggest clue. He’d hold me when I would wake up in the middle of the night with an anxiety attack. He would check my pulse and my blood pressure to reassure me that it indeed wasn’t a heart attack. He’d distract me with movies and snuggles with the puppy and when he needed to pull out the big guns, he’d back me cookies.

That handsome looking lumberjack is da hubs, Carl. And that little fluffy adorable angel, is our pupper Mabel. This was us the 9th anniversary of our first date.

I don’t know what I did to deserve them, but my family is pretty perfect.

Speaking of my glorious little puppy, I’d like to take a minute to tell you what a difference having her made while I was struggling.  She would know when I was upset and come curl up next to me and give me kisses. Never fail. And I am lucky enough that I am allowed to bring her to work with me, so when I needed some air, we’d go on walks. When I was feeling down she’d curl up on my feet or jump in my lap for a quick snuggle. 

Also, my parents knew. 

Let me tell you about my awesome parents. They have always encouraged me and pushed me to be my best. I’ve always had their love and guidance and help in my corner. 

My mother’s voice is the one I hear that gets me through the tough times.  “You’ve had your cry so now is the time for action. You come from a long line of tough ladies, so pick yourself up, stand tall with your chin up and your boobs out, and show the world what it means to be a Michener woman.”  (Michener is my mom’s maiden name.)

My dad had his own version of the “buck up, soldier” speech for my brothers.

I hesitated telling them what was happening to me.  I was embarrassed because that pep talk that got me through so much but it wasn’t working with this. I couldn’t control my emotions and I felt like they were controlling me.

With Carl’s urging I called my parents and told them that I was okay and perfectly healthy, but that I had just left the ER. I explained what the doctor said and what this would mean for me for the next few months.

I am ashamed to admit that I was surprised by the understanding and just intense love my parents gave me. I was really expecting the pep talk and I even made a joke to that effect. My mom said something so sweet and insightful that I felt that I was foolish in my embarrassment.

“You wouldn’t tell someone with a broken leg that the cure is to walk it off. That only makes it worse. The answer to this is to not be harder on yourself. It’s to be kinder.”

These amazing people with the big laughing smiles and hilariously inappropriate sign, are my amazing parents.

My day job is working with the family business maintaining books and running customer service.  I do all the design work and keep the websites poppin’. I had an anxiety attack at work, sitting at my desk and trying not to draw attention to myself. Not all of my coworkers are family and I wanted to keep this struggle private. Dad noticed something was wrong first because I was pale and shaking. It was the first time he’d seen it happen. He gave me a big bear hug and walked me into his office so that I could have some privacy. He didn’t really know what to do so he gave me a blanket and a glass of water and told me I could lay down on the couch if I wanted, then went to get my mom. The two of them sat next to me holding my hands. Mom was rubbing her other hand on my back and helping my control my breathing. Dad decided to tell me some funny stories of his wild years from before my mom “tamed him”. 

It was a difficult and confusing time, but I couldn’t have made it through without the support and love of my family.

The last members of my support staff are three of the best friends in the world. I won’t show their pictures or share their names because they helped me with the anxiety battle because they themselves understood the struggle. They would tell me I could call whenever there was an attack, but I never wanted to intrude on their life. They knew I was trying to tough it alone because I didn’t want to be a bother so they would check up on me constantly. My lovely land mermaid bestie told me that she knew I’d want them to call me if they needed me and that I wouldn’t mind about the time, so I should do the same because that’s what friends are for. And I took that advice, but I went the PM route instead so they’d get late night messages through Facebook with me venting and I’d feel better.  And when they might not have seen it right away I would wake up each morning to a phone full of memes and cute animal videos and lots of love.

I have the best friends.

The other part that made the year tough was the adjustment to changes once going off the meds. I’ll tell you the perfect explanation that my doctor gave me.

“Think of your body as a house. Your immune system is an unruly teenager and the medicine you were on was the strict parent keeping it in line. Now that the teenager is home alone, it’s going to throw a big house party and go wild. Eventually the novelty of it will wear out and it’ll settle down again.”

Y’all I got sick a lot. I would look at a sick person in a movie and catch it. Being sick all the time didn’t help with the anxiety either. I had to get tested for allergies because we thought with all the big changes to my immune system I might have been developing nut allergies. Those came back negative, thank goodness, but I was avoiding nuts all through the holidays. Almost every Christmas cookie I saw had nuts in it and it made me sad. I did a lot of my own baking though, so Carl saw that as a win. 

Every symptom of disease went on hyper drive. My mouth got so dry I thought there were tumbleweeds going through it. I would wake up in the night desperately needing water.  Eye drops became my new best friend and I had a water bottle with me everywhere and constantly putting lotion on. I bet I smelled like a bakery exploded with all the vanilla scented body products I was using to keep my skin moisturized. Carl never complained so that’s a win.

The big change was the damage done to my teeth and the start of joint damage. I have a great dentist who I cannot praise enough and we’ve been starting extra dental products to help with the dry mouth and to protect my teeth and things are much better.  I am a little bummed about the joints.  I’m not even 30 and I can tell you when a big storm is coming because my hip will get super stiff and I’ll have to hobble everywhere. 

My mom says that it’s karma for all the teasing I gave her before she had her hip replaced last year. I swear it was only gentle teasing. 

It’s been almost a year and things have calmed down and I feel more like myself again. I still have some issues and I am trying out a new medication and getting back on my feet.

The year wasn’t all bad though. There were a lot of pretty amazing things to come out of it.

Carl and I bought our first home. It’s super exciting and I feel like an adult but at the same time like I’m only pretending to be an adult because I literally have no idea what I am doing half the time.

I’ve been working that side hustle like non other and have been getting a lot of great work made for my graphic design and I even had the chance to work with a friend on an indie short, so that’s cool. I’m working on ways I can include more animation into my freelance work, so I’ve got that going for me too. 

I’ve been able to spend a lot more time with the plague children. I’ve been helping with babysitting and introducing them to some pretty cool movies like The Sandlot and Road to Elderado. They are some pretty cool kids, to be honest. Every time we’re together I feel like I need to record more of the crazy things they say so that I can animate them. I think that would be a good time.

I’ve been working out more, which makes me feel pretty good and has been helping with everything. I’m not too swoll yet but I am getting there. I’m hoping by the end of the year that I can swim a quarter mile without pausing. 

If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading.  It’s nice to be able to let it out and I am glad that I did. 

If you’re struggling with anxiety or being overwhelmed with life, know that I am cheering for you, and if you need it I’ll send you memes and funny cute animal videos and strange things that’ll cheer you up.  Just shoot me a pm on Facebook or message me here. 

Keep living the animator life.

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Don't Let Heat beat You Down: 5 Tips to Run Comfortably During Summer!

Summer can be a difficult time to go running. It requires a lot of preparation. You just cannot go out in the heat, expecting things to go your way. Though, on a fair note, it completely varies from runner to runner, but heat is tough to go long and strong.

Thus, it can be said that running in the heat is a difficult scenario to cope with, but the key is about how smartly and energetically you deal with the hot weather. It is not about defeating nature but work with it. Train your body to focus hard and level up your energy.

If you are still considering on how to muddle through the heat, then listed below are a few tips which are comprehensive and broad. Read on and find out more.

Material is important Dressing properly for a run is of utmost importance. All of the running clothes, from t-shirt to socks, pants to shoes, should be made from proper materials. Not only should it be able to wick sweat but must keep you at ease all throughout. A blend of a variety of fabrics is a great way to achieve comfort while they keep you cool. Best womens running pants and t-shirts as accessible with many manufacturers are designed to wick sweat.

Lightweight clothes are your besties When running in the heat, dress the part properly. Wearing ill-fitted clothes is not advisable, but firm clothes will sting and pose as an obstruction. To make a nifty choice, wear cheap running leggings from reputed manufacturers that are extremely comfortable. Team it with a lightweight t-shirt and proper running shoes that will further enhance your performance. Opt for clothes that come in lighter shades for that will deflect the heat and prevent sweating. To a certain extent!

Stay hydrated, a lot If you want to keep yourself a safe distance from heat strokes and other illness, then drink a lot of water! And a lot! Staying hydrated is very important. When you sweat, your body tends to lose a lot of water and electrolytes. This needs to be refilled so that you don’t fall sick or get down with some unwanted ailment.

Run before sunrise or after sunset The best time to run during the summer is at dawn and dusk. The temperature remains comparatively low which might provide some relief to you. Since sun rays are not really strong during this time, thus helping you run without feeling tired.

Run in intervals Take breaks when running! This is really applicable for the summer marathon. Do a lap of thirty minutes and sit it off for 5 minutes. Repeat the same process. It is actually a smart way to restore energy, especially when you feel tired. When taking a break, drink water or glucose and get back to running with full energy.

Just stick to the above mentioned tips and enhance your performance even when the temperature is soaring high. With a number of prominent manufacturers having assembled the best womens running leggings and t-shirts, the options are wide. Retailers can get attractive discounts when placing a bulk purchase with the manufacturers.